One Year Later…

💌 Dear Mamajee,

It’s been a year since you were gone. How am I supposed to feel? Well, before this, I know I felt sad. No, more than sad. I was heartbroken. Confused. Speechless. I couldn’t think straight. I felt like looking up to the sky and screaming.

But at the same time, I couldn’t make a sound. In the days leading up until now, honestly, I was anxious. What would it be like, knowing that it would have been a year since you left us? How would I feel now when before this, I felt like I couldn’t live without you? Would I always be in grief? Would I forget you completely?

Yet here I am, one year later, loving you and remembering you. So what’s the answer to that very first question? How am I supposed to feel? It’s simple – I feel relieved. Relieved that I have made it this far. Relieved that you still live on in our hearts. Relieved that I still have so much to be grateful for – the loving, supporting family I have around me, and the memories in which I can still find you.

And after all, while we may not be able to talk to you, we know that you’re waiting for us all to be reunited again. All I pray for is that Allah accepts my special gift to you in this holy month of Ramadhan.

Love,

Omar Mukhtar

19th May 2020

Sunday Without Adam…

💌 #DearMamajee @adamdidam,

You would have been 29 today…I wonder if it’s fate or a coincidence how the first birthday without you is on a Sunday? That must be more than a coincidence. Sunday has always been your special day, after all! You chose Sunday to start your journey in cookery, people waited for your new recipes every Sunday, you became a rising star because of Sunday…and then you left us on Sunday. People might think that now that your passing was so far away, we’d be on our way to getting over our grief. But in fact, the pain of the loss is greater than ever! It’s hard to think that your smiles and laughs will forever be out of reach, especially on your birthday! But though the pain of loss may feel strong, your presence is even stronger! Your smiles may be out of reach, but we can feel the warmth of your smile among us. That’s all it takes for us to smile, and I have a feeling that’s just how you want us to be…

Happy Birthday To My Beloved Mamajee,

Omar Mukhtar

#SundayWithAdam 💛